her vigorously, almost fiercely as the crop was still coming down on my back.

Despite the pain I felt as the crop continued to strike me I managed to bring off the girl who suddenly gave out a sustained moan of ecstasy as she climaxed and then slumped back, her eyes closed, in the chair.

'Now you can go,' said my aunt to Lisa. 'I want to deal with him.'

When Lisa left the room my aunt told me that she was more than disappointed in me for having touched the girl's thighs and removed my togue from her crotch. 'When you carry out a task I have ordered you to perform you must obey me implicitly,' she said. 'I think we understand each other by now, surely. You are staying here under my authority and I believe you not only respect me but want to obey me. I thought the clothes would help you to see things in a different light but I can see that we are still up against the aggressive sexual male in you. However, we shall continue to show patience with you.'

I longed at that moment for her breasts but did not dare to say so. I think my libidinous feelings would be much lessened if I had been able to caress and fondle her breasts regularly. But how dare I put it too her?

I began to explain my position. 'I do respect you,' I said, 'but it is not easy for me to do all the things you demand so quickly. I miss feminine company, I don't mind admitting

34

that. I miss sex, despite the female undies I am now wearing. Please, please, Aunt Maria, try to understand me.

I think my plea had some effect on her for she was silent for a few moments before she replied.

'I want you to stay here and assist me in she said. 'But I need a man whom various ways,

I can trust to carry out my instructions and to obey me completely. I think it may be hard for you at first but I think it is beginning to be time for you to see that you overcome your weaknesses. However, you may well be missing certain things and I shall see if I can help you. There is, as you know, a motherly side to me despite my antagonism to overt masculinity and my insistence on complete obedience. Come to my room tonight, I shall give you a nightdress and you may spend the night in my room.

35